Meditation

Sunrise

Useful

Oh God. I'm tired.
Why am I such a fool?
Why do I always leave everything
To the last minute!

Not just work,
I procrastinate about life!
Dying, I'll protest
that I haven't had time
to get started!

Why? Idleness? Laziness? Fear?

Fear of failure?
After all, if you don't do anything,
You can't do it badly, or wrong.

You can't be judged. Can you?

Dear God, who am I trying to fool?
Forgive me for so much waste;
Waste of talent,
Waste of time,
Waste of life.

Lord, in your mercy
Let me not live to be useless.

Frank Topping, quoted in Laughing in my Sleep